Miriam's follow-up comments 2/22/02:
A year following my car accident, I continued to experience daily, debilitating pain in my back, neck, arms and hands. Because this puzzled my Chiropractor, even though we were doing everything we could, I'd begun to sense that there was another component to the pain I experienced. On an energetic level, as well as emotional, there were some things I needed to address in order to release my body for healing. The techniques that Judy told me about seemed a good place to start.
Having scheduled the first session, I started to look closely at what really seemed to be bothering me. Sifting through several layers, it came down to a general feeling of mistrust of the people around me in my life, and then, even of mistrust of myself. The intention I brought to the session was to relieve this mistrust.
Going through the process of making statements, tapping, breathing head to feet, seemed so very simple that I didn't see how my initial score could change. So I was pleasantly surprised when it actually did after the first few rounds! (I had a genuine curiosity about the process along with a deep security and trust in Judy, which I believe makes a difference in how willing or open one is to allowing changes to happen.)
As my number got down to 3, it seemed to take a bit more (time or intention?) to get a shift to occur. This is when I started imaging the water and being in it with other people. It was so very uncomfortable for me to be in that place of knowing I HAD to interact physically with the other people in the water, but felt so afraid to do so. When the resolution of adding this "new skin" finally came about, it was a relief and so delightful that I laughed. This, then, was the true turning point (or shift) in my core belief and way of being with others and myself. The result, I believe was that I was then free to continue imaging what was constricting my back and neck so that I could release it. When I stated my score at "0", I was very happily surprised! I remember smiling deep inside myself.
During the next few months I experienced a renewed vigor in my physical body (i.e. being able to do more yoga as well as daily chores) and much less pain. Into the fall, I noticed that I was holding back in my relationship with my boyfriend (and still having regular bouts of pain), so decided to schedule with Judy again.
I related my difficulty in committing to my boyfriend to past disappointments with various people and relationships, so I thought a "clearing" around this would be the session focus. It really came down to my relationship with myself and how it's OK to be good to myself first.
As Judy guided me through this seeming maze of issues my intuitive senses opened to perceive all the truth about them. I realized that my old patterns and beliefs about "what a person really means" had become entangled with other possibilities of reality. It is not easy to put into words the quality of the perceptions and experiences I had during that session. Of course, there was the timeless aspect: While reliving events that took place over several years, I changed them in a matter of minutes! There were also the physical sensations; ranging from tightness due to perceived rejection or injustice, to the soft, openness of letting go to allow myself to have whatever I needed in a given event. Certainly this does relate to my first session about trusting - mostly trusting myself!
As I look back on my process of physical recovery from the accident, the months following this second session brought about the most definite change in my physical state. I had many more pain-free days and much less extreme pain when it did occur. Also very significant was that within one month, my boyfriend proposed marriage to me and I confidently accepted.
The whole session reminded me of living in the midst of miracles. These were dramatic changes that took place in my life. My awareness of this fact was even more solidified from writing this case response. It clarifies that with my eyes open I found my guides needed for healing myself and making my life more enjoyable. All around me are the beauties of life, which I receive with gratitude.
[JS note: I have observed that Miriam is also using her singing voice easily in her teaching work now - an aspect of herself that she had freed up during our second session.]
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